Sunday, February 28, 2010

27/02/2010

The 4th day we break

this is the 4th day we break... until now i still very very miss u... today go to pyramid... think back the time i shopping with you at pyramid... watching movie together at pyramid... damn miss the time... see alot of couple walking around me... sweet sweet... i damn envy them... suddenly think back the time i shopping with you also like that... today nothing to do suddenly flash back the time i together with you... really make me almost want to cry... flash back the time i eat with you at Uncle Seng, Dahrulsalam, Murni, Kim Gary and so on... and still flash back the time i watch movie with you at Time Square... i miss all the time with you... but everything is too late... it already become past tense... although i'm trying so hard, we also impossible to together back... you really make me change a lot... just now go pyramid walk walk, suddenly saw Hello Kitty and i stand at there for 15min... i also dunno what i see and what i think... we are already done... i still look for Hello Kitty stuff for what??? and i damn miss the time i with you at Melaka... sleeping together at living room... i also dunno why i don bring you go out turn around... when i reach home, i can see you is looking at me, the eyes is almost close... but i didnt care you... i straight away go to take bath... after i finish bath, you already sleep like a pig... then i didnt disturb u and walk to living room see stanz gambling with ducky and adwin... wait until i really feel tired, i go inside the room to sleep but i cant sleep because the air con is too cold... so i plan to sleep at living room... when i sleep at the sofa living room, i cant sleep well also, but suddenly you hug me, i feel so shocked, and when i open my eyes, you are in front of me, i feel damn happy and sweet... that time i feel so warm... darling, i really very miss you... i wish to call you this name forever and ever... but it is impossible, i know... what can i do now is just call you darling in my heart... i will always remember the time we being together... i very very miss you...

Saturday, February 27, 2010

26/02/2010

The 3rd day we break

This is the 3rd day we break... why my brain still thinkin of u... wht happen v me??? why i cant put down??? my brain keep flash back the time i with u... i really very miss u... the flower i giv u when 18/02/2010 i edi pass to stanz to ask him to pass to u... i knw it u sure don wan to see me... although i so miss u and wan to c u... this is the chance i can see u... but i choose to pass to stanz... i wish u r happy always... mayb we cant together all is god arrange... but i will try to accept it... the day without u is really damn hard to pass... and thx you for giving me 1month of happiness... i really feel very happy when together v u... i miss the time i'm driving then u sleep at my shoulder... is really feel damn sweet... mayb if we suitable to together, then we wont break... i'm still missing the time i drive all the way to cheras to meet u... and the time i eat v u at Murni... and the time we watch movie... and the time u acc me buy new shoes... and the time i talking phone v u... and the time i feel stomach ache u care me... mayb u will say tht all of it edi pass, why don i look forward for my life... but i can tell u tht u giv me a lot of good memory... i wan to save it forever and ever... i hav no bside u... pls take k of urself... pls don everynite do homework until midnite... try to rest more... if nt ur face will look so old... when u cant do ur homework, pls don cry... try to find different way to solve it... i knw tht u nt loving eat vege and fruit... but u muz eat... if nt will nt healthy... and the bottle i buy for u, is i wish u bring it to class so tht u got water to drink... no me force u drink water izzit feel very happy le??? but wht can i tell u is u muz drink more water!!! ur body juz will stay healthy... don make urself sick,... it really very suffer... and don sleep late edi... don skip ur class... if nt u goin to fail ur subject... i wish to c u... but too bad... forever also didnt got this kind of chance... wht i can see is juz foto... the foto i take v u... i will keep it... i really very miss u... wish u everything is fine... pls smile always... bcoz ur smile is really very sweet... i very like it... u muz take k urself...

Friday, February 26, 2010

25/02/2010

The 2nd day we break

today don feel to think everything... the whole day i think u, the nite i will dream of u... i dream tht u go away from me v another guy... is a funny thing... i also dunno why i will dream tht... u 1day will in a relationship also... bcoz we hav edi break... until nw i still waiting u msg or call me... but too bad... u nt... wht can i do juz can fully accept the fact??? today from morning blur until nite... when driving all the way to klang acc my Georga gor gor, almost accident... juz bcoz of thinkin something... really shocked me... if my car really bang, i really dunno wht to do... should i cry??? then tht time i loss 2 important ppl and 1 important stuff in my life... i'm keep acting happy in front of all my fren... really feel so sorry to them... i will do like tht is bcoz i don wish ur all over worry me... ur all treat me is very very good edi... i don wish to owe ur all too much... i scare i cant pay it... i'm really very very miss u... i nt suppose to sms u bcoz i scare i will disturb u... tomolo is public holiday, i believe tht u also day off and didnt got class... if we still together, sure i will wake up early and go to find u to watch movie and shopping... i still rmb the time we watch haunted university and tiger woohoo... during watching movie, we can kiss at there... i really miss the time i hang out v u... but wht to do... everything is pass... also cant turn bak... my fren keep tell me over edi, juz let it over... but is so hard to accept the fact... i still promise u to go bangkok again when i together v u... i wish the 1st time i go bangkok is v u... but nw, everything is different... and this will not come true... this forever is juz my dream only... juz nw my hp putting inside my room, suddenly rang... i thought is u, but too bad... is nt u... i feel damn disappointed... juz nw when to fren party, see all the couple so sweet at there BBQ... guys making food to gals, gals sitting bside their bf and giv their bf eat... damn sweet... this make me flash bak the time i with u at Melaka... i'm damn envy they all... Jerry last nite ask me where is my darling, i really dunno how to ans... in the end i choose to shake head and haiz... i'm really very very miss u... i feel wan to hug u nw...

Thursday, February 25, 2010

24/02/2010

the 1st day we break

this is the 1st day we break, i can feel a lot of different now and 1day before... juz a short short 1 month, there are a lot of thing happen... when the 1st i knw u r my gf, and the gal i'm hugging and kissing is u, i really unbelieveable... i nvr think tht i can together v u... but the fact is the gal i hugging and kissing is u... IS U!!! still rmb i tell u b4 tht although u r nt my 1st love, but i hope u r my last gf... u let me feel tht i hav to take k u forever... i always tell myself i wont find a gf live so far from me... but after i together v u, i really don mind... i keep driving up to fetch u go out, nw suddenly cant drive up to fetch u, i feel really uncomfortable... i suddenly miss the feel i drive up all the way to fetch u... the whole day i keep holding my hp bcoz i wish tht u call me or sms me... but u don hav... my heart broke again... mayb all of this is my fault... nw i knw tht u r very stress for ur homework, i really wish to giv u a msg, but i nt dare... i still dunno wan sms u or nt... i scare i will disturb u... i'm trying to act happy today... but its very suffer... i sometime think to die.... today go lecture class v a damn blur face... lecture talking cock in front and i'm keep flash bak during this month wht we do and wht we meet... really sweet to hav u this gf... i'm really feel happy when together v u... hang out v u i nvr think to save... i will splash all the money to u bcoz i feel its worth... the nite at melaka i thought u edi forget me, but when i sleep at living room tht sofa, u suddenly come and hug me... i'm shocked... but i'm happy... tht nite really feel so sweet... hugging u to sleep... although is juz a few hour, but i can feel tht i'm really fall for u... but the time pass really fast... can the time don pass so fast... if 1day if u got bf edi, then i how??? will i feel jealous??? will i feel sad??? will i cry??? i dunno... but i wish u r happy everyday... and i hope tht i'm the 1 can help u solve every problem although we r nt together edi... i love u...

Monday, February 22, 2010

22/02/2010

why every couple when they argue, they juz will think the fault tht another party have done... why they nvr think tht how happy when they together??? if every couple everytime argue, they 1st thing think tht the happiness tht another party giv them, i think it will less argue in this world, mayb oso didnt hav break up this word... izzit wan find a ppl tht u love is more easy than u find a ppl tht he/she love u??? then izzit single is more happy than in a relationship??? single happy is bcoz freedom??? but in a relationship also can be very happy when they didnt argue??? why movie always say tht guys will find another gal when they edi hav gf??? why movie didnt say gals will find other boy when they edi hav bf??? ppl always say when boy say break up to gal, boy is very cruel... then how about gals??? if gals say break up to boy, will it more cruel??? why nowadays true love is very less in this world??? izzit every couple together also got meaning??? love is really a lot of problem... but ppl will choose to dating and solve all the problem... wht u edi do or giv to ur bf/gf, u will not get bak more than tht, even 0 also dunno hav or ntl... i always heard ppl say love is without caring anything, juz continue do and giv... love is really a lot of question tht nobody can answer correctly...

Sunday, February 14, 2010

13/02/2010

darling, i really very happy can together v u... i'm really sorry about i cant acc u pass the 1st day of CNY and valentine day... but i promise u... i will treat u better once i reach kl... i really very borin at here... i wish u r bside me... i juz meet back my 1month together tht ex... i can feel tht i feel very 尴尬! nt bcoz i still got love her or wht else... juz bcoz i feel tht i got gf edi... so i nt suppose to meet her... but the fact is i goin my fren house and her bf knw my fren also... so if can, i wish to go another place as soon as possible... i can swear tht my heart is juz only for u... and i hav no enough memory to save another gal data... my heart juz hav a very small memory tht is around 1GB.... so inside this 1GB, i use all the space to save our data... i don wish still got another gal to walk near me... i wish u're the last 1 to me although u r nt the 1st 1 for me... till the end, wht i can say is i juz love u only.... darling, i love u ar................. i really very very love u ar.... don leave me alone ar... i very very scare lonely ar.... muacksss......

Friday, February 12, 2010

11/02/2010

很难得今天可以睡迟一点,但是又给人吵醒了!吵醒我的人不是我的朋友或我的父母亲,而是昨天我撞到那架车的车主!她是一位中年的妇女!听她说了一大堆的废话过后,已经睡不着了!真SIENZ!!!只好拨电给我的朋友约他吃午餐(也就是我的早餐)!!!过了不久,那位妇女又拨电给我叫我帮她还TOL车费,他妈的!为何TOL车费又是我还呢???TOL车老TOL的车又不是我的宝贝车!!!为了避免她再烦我,我只好自己出钱还咯!这样又没了RM50!!!真的很不呆!!!想不到昨天的车祸带给了我这么多的麻烦!但是我也因这起车祸一夜成名了!想不到竟然上了凤凰日报的头条新闻!每个斗湖人都知道何天生的儿子何烈榜撞人家的车,还一下撞两架车!害到整条马路都塞完了!成为斗湖大塞车!!!这几天看到朋友带女朋友出街,真甜蜜!也想起了我也有一个女朋友,只不过她不在我身边!真羡慕他们有甜蜜!而我这个新年就一个人过,情人节也一个人过...真伤心!

Thursday, February 11, 2010

~~~SHARING~~~

juz wan to share v ur all... i read this story until i cry... really very touching...

后悔的爱!大家看了别流泪

男孩和女孩初戀的時候,男孩為女孩折了一千隻紙鶴,掛在女孩的房間裡。男孩對女孩說,這一千隻紙鶴,代表我一千份心意。 那時候,男孩和女孩分分秒秒都在感受著戀愛的甜蜜和幸福, 後來女孩漸漸疏遠了男孩。 女孩結婚了,去了法國,去了無數次出現在她夢中的巴黎。 女孩和男孩分手的時候,對男孩說,我們都必須正視現實, 婚姻對女人來說是第二次投胎,我必須抓牢一切機會,你太窮, 我難以想像我們結合在一起的日子......男孩在女孩去了法國後, 賣過報紙,做過臨時工,做過小買賣,每一項工作他都努力去做。 許多年過去了,在朋友們的幫助和他自己的努力下, 他終於有了自己的一家公司。 他有錢了,可是他心裡還是念念不忘女孩。 有一天下著雨,男孩從他的黑色奧迪車裡看到一對老人在前面慢慢地走。 男孩認出那是女孩的父母,於是男孩決定跟著他們。 他要讓他們看看自己不但擁有了車,還擁有了別墅和公司, 讓他們知道他不是窮光蛋,他是年輕的老闆。 男孩一路開慢車跟著他們。 雨不停地下著,儘管這對老人打著傘,但還是被斜雨淋濕了。 到了目的地,男孩呆了,這是一處公墓。 他看到了女孩,墓碑的瓷像中女孩正對著他甜甜地笑。 而小小的墓旁,細細的鐵絲上掛著一串串的紙鶴,在細雨中顯得如此生動。 女孩的父母告訴男孩,女孩沒有去巴黎,女孩患的是癌症,女孩去了天堂。 女孩希望男孩能出人頭地,能有一個溫暖的家,所以女孩才做出這樣的舉動。 她說她了解男孩,一定會成功的。 女孩說如果有一天男孩到墓地看她,請無論如何帶上幾只紙鶴。 男孩跪下去,跪在女孩的墓前,淚流滿面。 清明節的雨不知道停,把男孩淋了個透。 男孩想起了許多年前女孩純真的笑臉,男孩看的心就開始一滴滴往下淌血。 這對老人走出墓地的時候,看到男孩站在不遠處,奧迪的車門已經為老人打開。 汽車音響裡傳出了哀怨的歌聲,

"我的心,不後悔,反反復復都是為了你,千紙鶴,千份情,在風裡飛......." 情 願 繁星點點,跨越銀河能否與妳相見? 不怕遙遠,只盼此刻飛奔到妳身邊。 往事如煙,魂縈夢牽,增添我心中思念; 縱然追尋萬年,今生的情緣不變!

~~~SHARING~~~

juz wan to share v ur all... i read this story until i cry... really very touching...

~~~SHARING~~~

juz wan to share v ur all... i read this story until i cry... really very touching...

10/02/2010

what happen v me??? today 10/02/2010 wednesday 4.15pm... i hav my accident at Sabah, Tawau... serious accident make the whole road traffic jam... wait until 5.15pm... traffic police come to take pic... after tht my car cant drive bak... hav to toll bak to police station to make report... wait until 7o'clock finally all the thing done... wht i get is juz a rm300 saman... and my car nw is at police station... really very sad about tht and my neck hav injured.... damn pain... why i will accident??? juz bcoz of my brain keep thinkin a lot of thing... make me oso blur jor... when i concentrate, in front tht car edi jam break... wht i nid to do is juz break... no use... at the end also crash to a white iswara then the white iswara crash to the wira... my car is juz so so only but the iswara front and bak also crash... damn serious... the wira tht owner is a ladies... damn lan si... when my fren all rich, we start smoking, she straight away scold us don smoking... i really beh ta han ar... when i step inside my house, my heart thinkin this time sure die... sure giv my parents scold until gao gao... but in the end, they didnt scold me... they juz ngam me... juz bcoz of tht, my heart feel more pain... i wish them scold me... so tht my heart can feel more better... my gf... confirm dunno wht happen... bcoz she at bangkok... i damn wish she is bside me and can cht v me... but so sad... she is nt bside me and she is at bangkok nw... i really don wish to tell her tht i accident... i scare she say tht i bring her trouble and nt try to help her solve problem... i'm really very very sad nw... wht can i do??? who would i find???

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

09/02/2010

i really feel tired v my stupid life edi... i edi feel tired to maintance edi... wht i really need nw is i can stop thinkin all the stupid thing and sleep until 13/02/2010 juz wake up... i really hope i can put down and stop thinkin all the stupid thing... leave it aside and wait the god to settle it to me... god, where r u??? when u will appear and help me to solve all my problem and answer all my question???

Sunday, February 7, 2010

07/02/2010

Chinese New Year is around... next sun edi is Chinese New Year... why i don feel happy??? every Chinese New Year i also feel very happy but why this year my heart feel very sour... feel very pain... i really dunno... actually wht am i thinkin nw??? who can tell me??? i still rmb wht my mum and dad tell me last nite... they say tht i'm the only hope for them... they really hope me can graduate my degree... so tht my daddy JOSEPH HO hav a son is degree student... this word come out i straightaway stun there and i feel very stress... how if i fail my sub again??? i really will feel very very sorry to them... although my heart keep saying tht i wan cont my study... why i don go to study??? actually wht happen v my attitude??? i always feel tht my thinkin and my attitude is better than any1... but from last nite i edi knw i'm 20years old but my thinkin and attitude is juz 16years old guy... my boss always say the truth... he say tht nowadays all the teenagers nvr think about enough money to buy food or nt juz think about got enough money to buy cigarette or nt (most of them, include me)... from nw, actually i nid to start thinkin about my future... but i didnt... why??? why??? why??? i'm really dunno... and last nite i really get hurt deeply... Lloyd Finally Hurt Seriously!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Lloyd's Heart Finally Broke Into 2 Pieces!!!!!!!!!

Friday, February 5, 2010

05/02/2010

today is my sad day... later goin bak sabah lo... cant c my darling for 13days... damn sad... i don wan go bak so early o... let me acc my darling 2days more.... juz 2days more only.... dunno why this year CNY i got feel tht its nt a Happy CNY... mayb is bcoz all my fren hav seperate edi and my darling is nt bside me.... and my money is getting lesser and lesser.... no money no talk.... i always rmb this word...

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

half year... juz a short short 6month... there are a lot of changes... i really regret goin bak Tawau so early... i really very very regret... should i change my air ticket??? this problem really stuck at my brain... until nw i still cant sleep... who should i find when i bak Tawau???

Monday, February 1, 2010

juz finish movie v my darling at Time Square... watching Haunted Universities... 1st is very scary 1... then middle got a bit funny... at the end is a bit disgusting... inside got 1 gal damn pretty... 100% look like japan gal... wht i can say is this is a nice movie... and nw i'm waiting KL Drift 2 and Iron Man 2... tomolo will be watching WooHoo!!