天灰

如果你不再出现
我的世界　还有什么可贵
可惜不够时间
让我们试验　什么叫永远
想念变成怀念
心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切
你最后属于谁
我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯　早已经全都熄灭

如果你从没出现
我会不会　觉得快乐一些
可惜残忍时间
总要把诺言一点点摧毁
想念变成怀念
心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切
你最后属于谁
我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯　早已经全都熄灭

<3

i'm loser

i juz found a photo from facebook and i planning to upload here... this photo is nt mean i v u always focus communicate through lap top... is mean "if someone truly love u, distance is not a problem. it's juz the power of making love grow each day." it mean u and ur ex... distance is between kl to melaka... but he still can love u so much... juz saw my fren post a meaningful status... so i copy it and paste on here... "Please appreciate the one who really love you before he leave." is it mean tht u hav to appreciate me??? haha... i'm wrong... u should appreciate a guy tht really love u but the guy is nt me and is him... u knw who am i saying rite??? is ur EX... i thought everything is change... i thought i have juz get ur heart... but i knw tht i'm wrong... yesterday nite at Sense was a fun nite... bcoz u forgiv me edi and care me, worry me... but is it from ur heart or juz alcohol make u care me and worry me??? i suddenly saw ur ex post "Blogging is an art, same as any other method of self-expression. Some are better at it than others." this status on twitter... so i go click on his blog (http://kenstylz-life.blogspot.com/)... a big big suprise for me... a "food in Kuala Lumpur" post...and the name he call u (my princess) make my tears non-stop dropping... "After dinner, She bought 2 sticky for me and my family. Really appreciate her for everything. Next week I probably will go meet up with her again.Food Hunt again ^^" written by him... touching... really touching... wht chun ming say is correct... "a guy willing to go to Melaka fetch u is a good guy..." but a guy willing to come to Kuala Lumpur juz for food hunt v u is more touching... ya... i'm a liar... zhi ask me why don straight ask u wht is his blog meaning??? u knw wht i ans??? i say tht it is nt important... if u really nth v him... juz a fren... but i still feel tht i'm trying to involve in the love between u and him... short form is 3rd part... ya... i admit it i'm freaking sad... but nth i can do... i can juz accept the truth... whatever... i juz wan to tell u tht i love u... and the last thing i wan to say is like wht i post in facebook... "wht u mean to me??? Is everything....Wht I mean to u??? Is nothing...."

i have juz delete all my past... why i wan to delete??? bcoz i wan start my new life... i'm ready to b ur bf, Pei Wern... i will take k u once i'm ur bf... i will nt let u feel lonely when u sad... i wan u to share everything v me... once again... i'm ready for u to b my current gf and my future wife... i love u...

"A hug means I need you. A kiss means I love you. A call means I miss you." i c this on my facebook, and i feel this is truth so i post it here... i really very very miss u... why u still cant accept the fact??? why u muz giv up ur life??? Pei Wern, i knw u will nt forgiv me but i still will love u... i knw u wont reply my facebook msg but i still will send u msg... bcoz i wan u knw tht although u don care me but i still will care u... i knw u wont giv a fuck to me but i still will update my blog and facebook status... bcoz i wan u to knw wht am i thinkin everyday...juz nw u talk v chun ming i hear everything... it is damn hurt but compare v i hurt u u will more hurt... wht can i do nw is waiting... waiting... and waiting... once u go singapore study edi i really will go either singapore find u or melaka... hope u will understand my feeling... i love u Pei Wern...

2011/10/28 4:13a.m

very long time nvr hear from u edi... long time nvr c u edi... i feel very very miss u... i feel wanna to call u even a short call... i really do wrong 1 thing... juz 1 thing... is enough for me to loss u... but i really nt tht kind of guy u keep say... i knw i no nid to explain too much... bcoz i edi done it... so i choose to admit it and wan 1 more chance from u... yesterday nite i went tere again... the same girl walk to me and stand bside me... she ask me am i Lloyd... i say yes... then i straight away walk away... stand bside zhi and jeffrey... bcoz i don wan let u misunderstand... i tell u i sick u keep ask me go find her and ask her care about me... i say i love u u ask me say to her... actually i knw tht u jealous and angry... i knw everything... u don wan to giv me a chance bcoz u scare i hurt u again... this is very true... "if someone truly loves you, distance is not a problem. It's just the power of making love grow each day." and this "a boy will tell u he loves u. but a man will show u." can i juz be ur little boy but sometime ur man??? i love u PeiWern and i will show to u too...

ur shower time... wht can i do??? juz write something about u... u juz change ur new profile pic... do u knw tht u r very cute in this pic... ppl say u r sexy... but i feel u r pretty cute... this photo make u look damn perfect for me... rmb... for me only... nt for others guy... i love u PeiWern... nt ur hairstyle only, nt ur face only, nt ur body only... is i love ur everything...

26/10/2011 3:18a.m

actually i really dunno wht u wan??? and also wht u think??? i really wan to knw am i really tht bad??? y u always treat me so cool??? can u ans all my question in 1 shot??? i really very miss u... if u r in front of me nw... i will shout loudly to tell u tht i love u, PEIWERN... can u trust me??? can u giv me a chance to take k u the rest of ur life??? i knw it is too early to talk about our future... but i will try my best to giv u everything... i knw i'm poor... but i willing to sell all my lovely car stuff and take the money to bring u go enjoy, giv u happy sunday every week...i hope we hav our own memory b4 u go to singapore... PeiWern, can u trust me more??? can u giv urself more confident??? i'm good but nt perfect... u r good and also nt perfect... but i hope i'm perfect in ur mind... u will always perfect in my mind... i love u... muacksss....

今日辛苦以后甜
以后幸福靠今天
富时应记穷时苦
莫待穷时想富时

:'(

i feeel unhappy bcoz of my stupid life... wht can i say now is
oOo FUCK MY STUPID LIFE oOo

21/10/2011 Only U

25/09/2011- i get to knw u and i knw tht u call Pei Wern (Colbie)... i love ur smile... ur smile attract me...
29/09/2011- finally i hold ur hand... i feel so sweet when i hold ur hand... feel so warm too... i still thinkin of ur smile... i love ur smile...
30/09/2011- i hold ur hand again... finally i hug u and i get to kiss ur face... i like the feeling when u standing bside me... today is the 1st day u kiss my face... 2times... is 2 times... tht time i feel tht i'm flying to the sky... and this is the 1st time i taking pic v u... i delete it bcoz it nt nice... i look very ugly... still the same... i love ur smile...
01/10/2011- tonite is the 1st time i buy flower for u... is only a rose... i still can afford to buy for u... and i also dunno why am i angry u... u tell me tht u getting very drunk but u keep drinkin v ur customer... i knw i nt suppose to angry u bcoz u havent bcum my gf yet... sorry... i love ur smile... ^^
02/10/2011- today is sunday and i have date u for a movie v all my fren... cinema was very cold actually i wish to hug u but u r juz my fren... a normal fren only... i v u watch the legend of white snake... i feel tht u look boring but u told me is bcoz u a bit sick... should i continue or juz stop now??? i dunno... i feel tht my leg was fall into a deep deep hole...
04/10/2011- tonite i go CLUB MIXX again... i saw u but i feel very sad... bcoz u tell me tht u will b changing working place on 20th to old klang road... i feel sad bcoz i cant c u in CLUB MIXX anymore... y the god wan treat me like tht??? i really don wan this ending... sad... still the same... i love ur smile...
08/10/2011- this is the 1st time u lay on my shoulder and u use ur hand to touch my face... and also u giv me eat the sweet u eating... although my car windscreen broke but i still very happy bcoz u treat me so good...

and nw u r tying to avoid me, stay far from me... i dunno why??? why should u treat me like tht??? i trying to call u this afternoon but u ignore my call... i call u juz wan to ask how r u??? r u still ok??? why u yesterday drink so much until vomit... i'm juz trying to care about u... but u dunno... and u tell me tht this coming sunday u don wan out is it bcoz of me??? actually sometime straight to the point is better than treat me cool... i hate the feel ppl dumping me, ppl don reply my msg... juz wan to let u knw i love u... and i miss u... i really very worry about u...

for u

u r so pretty... i love u... Unbelievable u will check my blog... i always thought tht u wont care about me... u wont check my stuff... but today i knw tht u got view my blog b4... and the way u treat me is all bcoz wht i write in my blog... juz wan to do a simple explain... i v her edi 1years plus... if i tell u i nvr miss her, tht's mean i'm trying to lie u... ya, i miss her but i don love her... for why i say i wan her bak is bcoz on tht time i nt willing to let her go juz bcoz a small arguement v her... i dunno how to let go... after tht i get to u... u shine my day... ya... mayb is too fast for me to love u.... but sometime feeling reach we cant block or stop... dunno why u make me feel wanna to c u everyday... i dislike drink but every nite i choose to go drink is bcoz u r working there... i go there juz for c u only... 1st 1st u always come to my table and talk v me... after 1week u starting to treat me more and more cool... am i do wrong smtg??? why u muz treat me so cool??? am i tht bad??? i go there is juz wan to c u only... i miss u... sometime i sms u u dont reply i feel very sad... i expect u will reply my every single msg... is it bcoz of this blog u scare to accept me??? is it bcoz of ur ex so u don wan to accept me??? is it bcoz of u goin to singapore study so u don wan to accept me??? is it bcoz of i go pub and i knw u in pub so u don wan to accept me??? is it bcoz i nt enough handsome so u don wan to accept me??? actually i really dunno wht u thinkin... juz wan to let u knw tht, if i wan to play u i no nid to waste all my time and money on u... if i play u i will nt feelin sad and my tears will nt keep dropping... if i play u i will nt every nite stand till 5smtg juz to msg u to say good nite to u... even i every nite 4smtg will fall as sleep but i still willing to wait until 5smtg... when i c u msg me in facebook i feel very happy... i check ur facebook every single hour... juz wan to update myself to knw more about u... sometime when i c u update ur status, i will keep thinkin r u saying me... i knw u edi 3 week but i keep dream about u... i dream tht i holding ur hand walk every single road.... Pei Wern, juz wan to let u knw tht i hope u will belong to me and don treat me so cool... tht's all... i will pray hard every day... <3 love u...