我还以为你要什么，我买给你我可以得到我要的关心。原来我是错的。我换来的只是你对我的不理不睬。我又能做什么呢？换来的只是一封WHATAPPS的谢谢。 算了吧。什么也不理是最好的。

其实，有时候有些东西是很难说出口的！我也明白。如果你不想见到我的话，就传一封信息给我就可以吗。何必要避开我呢？如果你怕我会收回你的香水，很对不起的告诉你我不是这样的人。我不会再给你有机会逃避我！因为我不会再找你了。我很怕每当我拨电话給你时你不接，或者是你的朋友说你在忙，其实我已知道了你是故意不要接。你有时间给COMMENT ＣＡＬＶＩＮ　ＴＡＮ，　就是没时间回复我。不要开玩笑了。闹够了。不论我对你做什么东西，你也不会再接受回我了。你说我为她撞车，我也可以说我为你跌倒。我脚很痛。痛到我要哭出来，但是你在哪里？你在那不断的笑。今天我以为你会关心我，但是你竟然逃避我。原来我一直以来以为的东西都是错的。没关系。你开心就好。那瓶香水就当是我送给你的圣诞礼物吧。

Actually I really dunno what is the problem nw... U ignore my call... Ignore my whatsapp... I'm wht? Why u can treat me like this? U make me feel very hurt...

something i really don wan to knw, don wan to c, don wan to touch, don wan to feel, don wan to hold anymore... i feel pissed off when everytime i cht v u... i cht nicely v u but wht i get everytime??? change back is ur rude word... i damn pissed off of it edi... i feel fuckin tired nw... but i dun feel wanna sleep... hate this kind of fucking feeling...

juz finish my lunch at home... Indo mee double... when start eating tht time very delicious... after th feel very disgusting... feel like wan to vomit... my brain keep flash back yesterday nite i v u hav movie at mid valley... although u keep like don wan bother me but is a good starting... no matter how i will try my best to bcum a perfect bf to u... i love u...

juz finish my lunch at home... Indo mee double... when start eating tht time very delicious... after th feel very disgusting... feel like wan to vomit... my brain keep flash back yesterday nite i v u hav movie at mid valley... although u keep like don wan bother me but is a good starting... no matter how i will try my best to bcum a perfect bf to u... i love u...

juz wake up... good afternoon to the world and merry christmas... almost sleep edi 12hours... but still feel very tired... my heart still very very pain... u actually dunno where u do wrong... nvm la... juz forget about it la... today is sat tomolo is sun... i still got 2days to rest and monday nid to go to the war to fight for my commission edi... i hope i can do it... kambateh Lloyd...

To: Stephy Boo Yoke Ping

With your love close to my heart...
I can ask for nothing more...
Near of Far,
Wherever I go...
You will be my companion forever!
I Love You!!!

From: Lloyd Ho Lap Pom

i have a very bad christmas. juz bcoz of u... u spoil my christmas eve... when 1st singing k v kelven and jeremy... suddenly saw a msg from u... the msg is saying.... oii where r u... nvm... i feel happy when i saw this msg... my fon was barred i straight away borrow jeremy hp to call u back... after 10time ignore by u... i starting to think different thing... mayb u send wrong... juz left it... after tht u send 1 more msg to me ask me where r u... 1time can be send wrong... but 2 time mean wht? i feel more happy... i call u back faster... then u accept edi... we juz talk like normal and i feel miss u and wan to meet u... then i straight away 5 5 kao dim go to find u... wht u ask me to explain, actually nt i hide or don wan to explain... is i also dunno how to explain to myself how i gonna to explain to u... but nvm... fetch u go take car then promise u say wan to go find u eat... i late for 30min... u angry me... i straight away go ur house and wait u... hp no credit juz can use call me back to send u a lot of msg... but u reply me how i gonna tell u i at ur house outside... but finally u come out and pull face to me... i was very saD... i go back v bad mood... after i reach home, i check ur facebook... i juz knw u scold me like tht... i was damn fuckin sad... why u always muz make me happy edi then make me sad again... if like tht u r same type as me... nth different between us... i suddenly feel tht i'm playing fire... this fire juz will make me happy or sad... most probally is sad... but i can choose ntg... bcoz i love u... nvm... if u continue wan scold me till like tht... mayb i really nt the type u wan... i will juz let go... my heart was very sad nw.... fucking sad... wht u mention me at facebook everybody can c... this is a bad christmas...

Early in the morning hear my fren say tht today 3.30 finish work feel damn happy. But how I knw the chinese customer I submit up for rm20k juz approve rm7k only! And he say donwan so my rm120 commission is gone. Damn moody till I call my customer and two customer fax in in the same time which amount is rm19k and rm100k. Bcoz of rush in time I haven't submit yet. Juz can wait till monday only submit. Tonite is christmas eve but no place to go! Planning to go to station 1 subang to have a drink! This is the 1st plan but haven't confirm yet! Today was a busy day but my brain still can find time to miss u! I miss u deeply... I wish to hurt u nw! I wish to kiss ur little face nw! Haiz...

Is time to let go...

sorry... is time for me to let go u... since u r so hate me... no matter what i do to u u will juz say bullshit... no point for doin it... continue like this juz will make both of us suffer... so i choose to let go... no bcoz i don love u anymore... is if i continue like tht juz will make u more hate me... i don willing to let go u oso... i very sad also... but no choice... i muz do it... mayb after few years we will got faith to together back... since both of us now also nt mature... juz let time pass... if got faith then together if no faith force oso cant be together... i hope u can pass happily... and wont feel boring without me... u muz be happy everyday... this is wht should u do and wht i wan to c... Lloyd will disappear from nw... i promise not to call u anymore, sms u anymore, whatapps u anymore... but u cant stop me continue blogging... bcoz i like to share my mood at here... no matter what i write here, u juz ignore then ok edi... but if u still got anything nid my help, i will still help u... pls don shame about tht... bcoz i really owe u alot... this is the only chance i can pay back to u... Santa Claus, i need my christmas present which is Stephy Boo Yoke Ping can happy forever and hav a healthy lifestyle and also have no thing to think... tht's all... pls... i beg u, Santa Claus... Stephy, i nid to end here... u muz take good k of urself... no nid to miss me bcoz i'm juz a ppl who pass by... hope u can grow up... take k...

To: Stephy Boo Yoke Ping

Bury me deep inside your heart
And hide me in the dark
Don't let in the light
Never let me go, hold me tight
Don't ever let me go away
Please be with me and stay
I want to be buried in your heart
Yet it's so dark
Even though you love to hate
I feel as if this is fate
Please love me as i do you
I sleep in silence
I dream in darkness
Just hold me tight
Keep me away from the light
Bury me in the dark
Inside of your heart...

From: Lloyd Ho Lap Pom

yesterday maybe too tired edi... hav a very very bad dream... make me wake up this morning feel very tired... my bad dream damn funny... my father wan to spoil my face but u r the 1 who come out to save me... once u come out tht time my phone ringing coz is time to wake up for work... wht ppl say is always true... bad dream will stand the whole nite, sweet dream is juz a short moment... mayb this few days i too miss u edi... make me dream about u... luckily is not a bad dream... early in the morning go to work feel very down bcoz i still cant accept u wont love me anymore... full days didnt sales make me more tired and more emo... when lunch time, i prefer stay in office and sleep... mayb is bcoz i like alone... afternoon tht time try to fight for my sales but its fail... finally, 4o'clock call a chinese guy he told me tht he interested on it and nid rm50k... so i juz waiting him to fax in... unbelieveable he fax in to me at 4.30pm... so my sales was increase rm50k again... is a big step to my target... i nid 600k tis month now i only hav rm130k... but nvm... i will try my best... Kambateh...

Your Favourite Food...

Seeing every ppl celebrating christmas happily but I'm the only 1 have a lonely christmas! What a sad thing... I suddenly feel wanna cry! Who can lend a shoulder to me?

what happen v lloyd? Why so emo? Where is the oldest lloyd? Lloyd is died!!! No more Lloyd in this world. Lloyd this name will forever loss in his friend and his lovely gf heart!!!

Why am I so stupid? Today 1 sales oso didn't have... When I goin got tht much of money? Why am I doin such a stupid thing? If I don do it then I can have a wonderful christmas eve and new year eve v u! Why am I regret now? What I do muz responsible it. I choose to do this kind of thing actually early muz knw will got this kind of fucking thing happen... But why I still doin? Now regret is totally no use edi... Actually no matter wht I do nw, I also can't get back ur heart anymore! Then why I still trying to get u back? Why??? Why??? Why??? In my brain now really got a lot of why!!! One day if I really can't solve my problem, I will choose to hide... How to hide??? The only best way is suicide...

白羊座男人具有极强的正义感，以及扶弱济贫为实现理想而不断进取的责任感和开拓精神。在感情上，他将拥有一份真挚的爱情，却很容易陷入单纯盲目的爱情之中，热情来去匆匆。

处女座女人有个性，有很强的自我意识和尖锐的批评能力，神经敏感，将辨别和均衡视为生活信条。做出决定之后不会轻易后退，不愿认输，由于自尊心强很少有知 心朋友。有多次被自己帮助过的人背叛的经历，有时越是亲切待人越会遭到更深的背叛。

现在才了解已太迟了！

To : Stephy Boo Yoke Ping

As long as i live,
I'll always be there
to do anything for you
or go anywhere with you.

As long as forever,
my love will be true-

And as long as i live,
I'll love only you...

From: Lloyd Ho Lap Pom

What is LOVE???

A special way of being close
That only 2 can share,

A special touch of tenderness
That shows how much you care,

A special way of knowing
That someone is always there-

That's LOVE...

I learn this sentence from my 19years old birthday card which my ex give me.

i feel sad... i feel very very sad... juz let me be alone... facebook edi close... final pursuit edi quit... wht to do nw??? be alone... i loss u... i hurt u... i cant say sorry anymore to u... u will nt see me anymore... juz hope tht u r happy and hav a healthy body... tht all... this is the christmas present i wan...

20/12/2010

4days edi... my phone didnt show 03-56371318 or 012-649 7899 or 016-634 4846 incoming call... feel sad about it... ur heart hav no me anymore... although how many submission i got also no use... i dont feel happy... today got 2 submission actually i feel very happy... but without u, no matter wht i have i also wont feel happy... i juz wan u bside me... i love u very much... juz bcoz i do wrong 1 thing i loss u 4ever... if the time can turn back, i will choose to treat u as good as i can... i will giv all to u... as long as u love me i everything ok...

19/12/2010

等你等了三个小时。那有怎样？也不是要分！我在你的朋友和你的面前，只是一个笨蛋罢了！你们有何知道这份爱情对我有都重要吗？去年的圣诞节我也是自己一个人过，我也对自己发誓了，我不会让自己一个人孤单的再过圣诞节。但是现在已分了。我也不知我该如何去做。其实，你还是爱着我的。但是你不知如何下台而以。有面子的下台真的重要过这段爱情吗？我一着在你和你的朋友面前，一点面子都不要，全部给完你，是因为我要你知道我是很爱你的！但是现在我与你已不可能了。希望你有好日子过，天天开心，快快找到一个好的，我就开心了。你开心，就是我开心。

Nothing gonna change my love for you!!!

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young
And we both know they'll take us
Where we want to go

Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy,
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too

P.s: actually this song i wan to sing for u so long edi... but always didnt got this chance... mayb forever also didnt got this chance edi... this time i really do a very big mistake... mayb is nt big, but u r trying to find reason to break up v me... nvm la... i will juz respect wht u wan... and i also will giv everything tht u wan... as long as u r happy then ok edi... so wish u happy forever and 5 5 get a new and better 1... :)